betweenrealities | [Fic][Samurai Deeper Kyo] A Different Person (3/?)

Title: A Different Person

Fandom: Manga - Samurai Deeper Kyo

Summary: Sasuke changed, and it did not go unnoticed by others.

Rating: PG-13

Warning: Yaoi, KyoSasu, minor YukiSasu. And everything else that comes along with it. Unbeta-ed.

A/N: Err… I’m sorry for not updating for so long? Two, three years I think. *gets bricked*

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Chapter 3: Yukimura: Observe

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As the Jyuuyuushi around him were getting ready for dinner, he started to feel worried. After a few hours missing, Sasuke has not yet came back home. He should not be, but this was the first time the silver-haired youth did not came back home until this late.

Thinking about Sasuke, the heir of the Sanada household’s mind reverted back to his discussion with the Jyuuyuushi about Sasuke’s abrupt changes. He knew it for a long time ago, but he was surprised that the youth did not bother to hide it from his other comrades.

It was just not like him to do that.

Sasuke always hid his own feelings, no matter how they would eat him later on. And after the incident with Saizou, the youth kept to himself most of the time. It was very rare for him to smile, let alone any changes of expression. Only after the battle with Chinmei he started to show a small friction of his emotions.

The heir of the Sanada family felt very proud when Sasuke announced to him, Kosuke, Saizou, Jinpachi and Kamanosuke that he would not be with them while they were in the Mibu. In the determination of finding his true self, the youth did not realize that he was on his way to be a fully-grown ninja.

Yes, Sasuke never told him, or any of their comrades, the reason why he decided to stay with Kyo’s group. But he somehow knew. It was the best time for him to find out about himself, anyway. But only long after that conversation Yukimura realized another reason of his decision.

Since Sasuke was small, he realized that Sasuke was too strong for his age. Because of that, he was unable to have friends of his own age and ended up with his older companions instead. The children of the servants were even afraid to get close with him.

But that was what he first thought about that. Before him, no, they met with Kyo’s group. That was when he decided that Sasuke was, indeed, different.

Different from the way he thought the silver-haired should be. He was quiet not because he was not familiar with people his age, but because he could not find someone who suited for him to call as real friends.

Like what he found in Kyo, Benitora, Yuuya, Bontenmaru and the rest of their small but crazily dangerous group.

It was never a matter for him if he could not find any friend after the war. It was a matter for Sasuke if he could not secretly correspond with Benitora, who was now supposedly acts as their main enemy. Or could not frequently send maps to Hotaru who kept getting himself lost around Japan and China. Or could not go to meet Akari in Aokigahara as soon as he finished his missions.

For the young ninja, why have new friends if you could have your current friends beside you?

Meeting Kyo again after five years had truly changed the golden-eyed ninja. As the one who raised Sasuke since he was a toddler, he could easily see any changes of expression on his pale face.

Yukimura could still remember the expression on his subordinate face. Shock, surprise and excitement were shown on his face. His once pale face was flushed with excitement and the cold façade he has put on for years fall off for awhile before was quickly put on again. But it went unnoticed by Yukimura.

And he was sure that Kyo noticed it too.

Kyo went to drag Sasuke away from the household after talking with Yukimura. He did not know, or maybe did not want to know, what had happened between those two ex-Mibu residents. But it was his responsibility to know his subordinates’ welfare.

Especially since Sasuke changed after that.

Yukimura knew that Sasuke’s weird behaviour that occurred for the last few weeks was triggered by his talk with Kyo. And he was well aware that the talk was nothing short of weird and amusing at the same time since Sasuke was blushing furiously, while the demon had a smug, satisfaction smirk plastered on his devious face while they were walking together back to the household.

He became more suspicious when he saw Kyo’s large hand in Sasuke’s silver, messy hair while Sasuke’s smaller one was clinging to his yukata. And did he mention that Kyo’s hair was messier than the last time he looked at it? No one else saw what happened as the moment the two entered the Sanada residence, they had let go of each other.

He hated to even think what had truly happened between them.

Yukimura knew, deep down, covered by the respect and admiration for Kyo, Sasuke had felt more towards said man. But he kept it deep inside him, all for the sake of Kyo and Yuuya’s current relationship; the one that all their friends expected, and was blessed by all.

All three of them – Yukimura, Sasuke and Kyo knew the consequences if Sasuke ever decided to tell his friends what he really feels for Kyo. Not only would he lose his pride, but also his friends too.

And Sasuke would do anything to prevent that from happening.

Yukimura could not help but feel threatened with Kyo’s special presence in Sasuke’s heart. He knew he was being stupid, but anyone would feel threatened if someone that you really cared for was changing for another person who had been your rival all your life.

… Since when did that happen?

‘Since you fought alongside with Kyoushiro against Kyo. Since you brought Sasuke along with you,’ a small voice inside his head answered.

Since that time? That long?? How come he never realized it before?

‘Because you were too busy denying your own feelings towards Sasuke, that’s why.’

He had to agree with that sarcastic remark. His own feelings towards the young ninja had been developed since he realized that Sasuke was different from his other comrades. Paedophilia be damned. He might be 20 years older than Sasuke, but who cares about that? If he worried too much about it, he would never have any relationships with so many women before.

But he knew that Sasuke never loved him like that, maybe just like a brother or a father figure that he never had.

“Yukimura-sama?”

Noticing the concern in the voice, he turned around to see a concern-looking Kosuke. “Yes, what is it, Kosuke?”

“The dinner’s ready, but Sasuke has not come home yet. Do you need someone to…”

“Yes, I need someone to go and search for him. I think he’s in Aokigahara. Saizou, Unno, can you please,” Yukimura said at the same time giving orders to the two Jyuuyuushi. While Saizou knew his way in Aokigahara well, he would need the more level-headed Unno by his side, just to make sure the long-haired ninja would not lose his mind over something trivial.

As he heard the distant replies, he walked towards the dining hall for the awaiting dinner with the rest of the Jyuuyuushi, hoping in his heart that Saizou and Unno would find their youngest comrade fast before something that could destroy the stability of their life happened.

And he also hoped that his uninvited guest would be there for dinner this time, after skipping the chance to dine with them too many times.

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A/N: I’m so sorry for not updating for so long. I just lost idea of what to write for this fic. And eventhough I have four chapters done, I was still not satisfied with them.

I’ll try to update more frequently, but I can’t actually say the exact time.

More A/N: Some might notice the differences of writing styles between chapters. I’ll try to find a suitable time to edit the old ones. Looking back, I’m not actually proud of my old writing.

Any constructive review is very well appreciated. Thank you for reading.

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Previous chapters:

Chapter One || Chapter Two

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